I won’t Lie…its been a difficult few weeks !
What with one thing and another I found I had forgotten something.
This morning it reached its climax…my beautiful dog became unwell and after a frantic couple of hours, a visit to our wonderful vet I found I could breath again.
When I arrived home, calm was what I needed; it was then I remembered what it was I had forgotten…self preservation !
I had misplaced it and the world decided to come calling in all its glory, stress hit me like a speeding train and it was then I had to re-implement my place in this world and what was important to me.
I stepped out into the garden and pulled up a chair, I sat; the sun drowning me in warmth, the sounds of bee’s humming all around; I closed my eyes for a few moments…my heart began to slow its pace, peace washed over me and I understood in that moment what was important.
People will be people and we all have our own way of being…on the odd occasion I lose sight of the things that keep me moving forward; my partner in life of thirty five years, my two dogs Maggie and Isla and a few splashes of beauty in the form of the roses that grow around our home.
All the noise, drama, stress and deadlines can wait, I refuse to sacrifice the beauty of my family for things that quite honestly will come and go !
For a brief moment I am happy to push the pause button, if people can’t or won’t understand that this second or two of solitude is necessary then they will have to find their own way, but it won’t be at the cost of the things that fill my heart.
I sat back in the chair and listened to all the beautiful sounds around me, birds calling to each other, the occasional hum of a passing bee and the gentle warm breeze of the day.
I spoke quietly to the Universe and asked gently to please remind me where I put these things in future, no doubt there will be the odd time I do forget…but not today !